“It’s not just about sex. Don’t get me wrong. Sex is fucking great, but when you have a connection with someone, when you feel so strong for someone, just a kiss is enough to make your knees weak. You just can’t beat that.”—(via v-ogued)
The only thing I can do at this point is love you until I’m full of nothing but how thankful I am that I was able to love you and have you love me in return. Separation hurts and burns but sometimes it just doesn’t work like it’s supposed to. I’m not going to spend my days hoping we’ll get back together because I have to live my life as Eden. I have to better myself and become strong and independent again. I have to become the Eden people enjoy seeing and being around. I know I can do it. But it’ll always been in the back of my mind at night… wishing you were holding me. Wishing that things were like how they used to be. And it’ll hurt. I hope things are different between you and I one day. I love you with everything in my soul. And became of that, I’m ready to let you go for now.
Tired of the hurt so im backing away. Shouldn’t say things you don’t mean and expect me to just allow it to pass. I’m not an asshole. I’m not treating you badly at all. I’m literally doing nothing but walking away.. I’m treating myself good. I’m not gonna keep getting hurt and forgive you for it….
Honestly boys are so complicated and obnoxious at the worst of times. Don’t ignore me, treat me like I’m non-existent, and then get mad at me when I say I think I need to move on so I don’t get hurt anymore. And when you’re screaming at me for all this and tell me to stop fucking crying, of fucking course I’m gonna tell you to never talk to me again. God I wish you would just fucking stop being like this. I hate who you are now and I want the old you back and in my arms. Stop fucking blaming me for all your anger. You’re not the only one hurting and you purposely make it so everything I do is wrong and makes you angry. Jesus fucking christ, get it together.